HA. What a joke. I never had to feel like this, I never had to. Because you will never do something to make me feel like this. The irony is that I'm the culprit. You were unsure, you trusted me to answer your doubts and you listened to them. But I messed up. I messed up your chances.
It's always me. The one that makes my own life miserable.
it's better than udders i guess
but i'll have to catch up fast
negative thoughts
emotions
shouldn't be kept till breaking point
don't act strong
just let it out
But you were in them.
thinking back
at the corner seat
near the entrance of the class
when did i began to notice you?
back then
thoughts to myself
you seem carefree
bad attendance
bad attire
it didn't matter to you
but is that okay?
wondered to myself
you miss classes
lots of time
lots
you never seem to have trouble
socializing
overheard particular conversation
joined in
you responded casually
realized that
you treat everyone equally
in your own way
just a classmate to you
time pass
observe you at the back
the rare occasions
your presence in class
crush was behind me
should have been blinded by him
weird?
maybe not
feelings for you?
nope
just curious
why?
not sure about it
wondered about your life
the things that you do
mid September
critical exams
your approach
really weird
have to admit
secretly inside
made me smile
verbal abuse
from me
from you
start?